forgive a girl that has been abroad for about a month not to be aware of all the “new” gossip in lebanon. but to hear people talk of bringing back jamil elsayyid and considering him a “good” candidate for the interior ministry has got to be a drastic change! and to have amal and HA guys discussing amongst themselves that maybe el sayyid could be the next head of parliament must be amazing!!

what is going on in this country we call home?

what are we doing to ourselves?

have we become so tired of maybe seeking independence and decided that the syrian boot is all we can achieve? yeah i guess that must be it. we just dont like being free.

are we destined to run around in circles bringing back criminals once and again until they die? if that is our destiny, i’d rather not worry anymore, let them have full reign, let us all think of leaving.

and whats even more funny is that these people believe we should compensate el sayyid jamil el sayyid for his days in prison by giving him an important role. now isnt that nice? i wonder whether el sayyid compensated the old man that stood up to him one night in a restaurant because he didnt want to leave the table on el sayyid’s orders? i wonder if that man was compensated for being taken to jail on a whim?

but no, of course we should compensate a dirty, corrupt, criminal…

 i dont know what to say, the disappointment i feel is increasing by the moment and by ever word that comes out of my fellow patriots’ mouths.