Another martyr falls in the most brutal and barbaric ways, another 14th of march leader, another young Lebanese leader, another Christian leader.

Sheikh Pierre Gemayel was shot dead in the middle of the day in a Christian city in the middle of the road and yet his criminals ran away. It is unthinkable that no one saw those men, no one saw followed them, no one took their cars pictures. Those criminals must be found at all price, even if it took a UN resolution to find them, we want the truth for his murder as much as we want it for Hariri’s murder.

Our leaders and young men and women have been the prime targets of the Syrian regime for over 25 years, we are losing our elites one after the other, our ‘quality’ leaders are getting killed and we still have no answer.

Some people are blaming Syria, others Israel and the US and others allow me to say stupidly accusing the government and 14th of march.

But we have to blame ourselves, us the people who started the Cedars Revolution, who went to the streets defying the invadors and the ‘dark’ forces and triumphed, we gave up this victory to our leaders who did not deliver as we expected, yet i refuse to blame them .. it is our fault first and foremost …

Tomorrow is Sheikh Pierre’s day, just like almost a year ago Gebran Tueni’s day, and before that Samir Kassir, and before it Rafiq Hariri and way before that Bashir Gemayel etc etc …

We are all frustrated, boiling from the inside, and we should all attend tomorrow’s mass, for Sheikh Pierre and all our martyrs only, not for the international tribunal and not for Lahoud .. just for Pierre.

Tomorrow, you will hear speeches from all 14th of march leaders, but its young leaders wont be there, Gebran Tueni wont be there and god knows how much we miss him.

Everytime someone dies, i tell myself it is not worthy even living in this country, but something inside keeps me attached, i rethink of Bashir and the thousands of martyrs who died for us to stay and i regain hope, but i dont know how many times i can do that.

I regained hope this time, and am waiting impatiently for tomorrow to see where the crowds will take us, the Party of Lebanon, as Gebran said, that will be regrouped in Martyrs’ square will decide to go.

R.I.P Sheikh Pierre Wou Sallemlna 3al Bashir wou 3ala Gebran wou kil chaheed.